Some Have Better Days
Well anyways, metaphor aside... this is what happened... who would have thought that a single visit to the doctor would change almost everything... this is what we sick people usually said...but it didn't really change it for me. It put my life into a STOP. "You got cancer" is definitely one you don't want to get in your mail...not in your million lifetime. But I guess I got drawn. I couldn't even remember how I felt that day. It was something unexpected of course... then I started counting years? Days? Minutes? Seconds? Or how much time do I really have? Then came all the statistics of survival... what side of it am I drawn into? I wasted no time... I thought I'd skip all the drama I get into business right away. And yes, believe it or not, I chose not to cry about it... I started to plan logistics, finances and "hiccups" right away. I got to survive this...and yes friends and family came along to take the journey with me each of them playing their roles which I will forever be thankful for.
So, the journey began... as sad as I wanted to be... I just hold on to faith. After all the gazillion needle attacks, a "stab" in the belly which will always remind of my battle, and the prayer of hope from friends and family, here I stand await, keeping up with my favorite kardashian girls (what else can a sick person do?) ...and so ready for the next stop. Yup, chemo is just around the corner...and better be up and running on a hat shopping spree... and yup, partly one of the reason I needed to get up early in the morning in spite surgery discomfort and "turtle walk" around the house to recover fast cause I needed those hats or werk the alien head... but seriously I don't intend to scare the kids at home. So, get me those hats or a sack over my head...LoL! ...and oh did I say I turned vegetarian too? Yup, I turned into a fish eating vegetarian...does it make sense? Oh well, I guess it just means I eat more veggies now than I usually do... and a lot of people... "experts" say it is a good thing. So I bet it is... ;)
and yup... I am seeing eyebrows raising the roof. Annoying right? it is so unbelievable that a sick person can hold on to a pocket full of sunshine...and stay up and bright like crazy. Don't be. I get sad too. I am sad that I don't to do the things I usually love to do. That all I do all day is roam around the house in eerie silence as if I am a ghost already ;) to have people, good people do things for me because I can't ....because I am too sick to do it. But just like any other battles I have won my first one. And gearing for yet another. Just have to keep that helmet on get all the faith you have and brave on. huha!
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Shannel, you are amazing! I so admire your positive attitude and positive outlook during what must be the scariest time in your life. Stay strong...I will keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteKeisha xo