shannellee

"Stay calm, you have a full life to live." Apparently I have to keep reminding myself so often that I never need to be afraid about anything anymore, never need to rush and never need to keep pursuing things that are never meant to be... and that I could never bungee jump even if I only live once and the "you got to live life to the fullest" requirement ;) It appears that here is that near death experience notion that we need take life at full swing, do something you haven't done before, go to places you never been before and sky dive from a speeding jet. However, my life is actually quite the contrary... I have never even done a marathon or stand up for any cause at all (not just yet). 

It seems like more and more I find myself taking life at a slow pace.  A slow walk instead of a marathon. It seems like waiting patiently for things to happen on its own time gives me that peace I never once have. And those little gaps between waiting comes like a perfect interlude.

So this week I did something that I always fail at doing. I started my own organic garden. Well, this is not a start to be honest. This is by far one start of my million tries to grow something. But I would patiently wait for the first sight of life forcing its way out of the seeds I have planted. And though I can't be too excited, I am anticipating that one day a life will grow.

I was letting go of a thing few days ago and realized... if that thing happened to be of such value, then it would be really difficult to trash it out eyh? But life is such. It is so much easier to let go of things we don't really value and hold on to something we cherish the most. Like those that we spent so much of our time, effort and money, and most of those that touch our hearts deeply. So how do we really value things? or is there really value on such things? I have often ask myself lately on what is important to me now. What is it that gives me joy and what is it that I would treasure the most. I am not talking about life here, for obviously, it ranks the most important to all of us. So what is it that defines me now. Is it a sense of purpose? to answer a calling to an ultimate need? to consume myself to human activism? to embrace an eminent responsibility? to console humanity? or to sit back watch the world go by, give a sigh of relief and let things be. How much do we give value to living? or are we too consume with all the "this is what its suppose to be" that we forget what is important. That with all the generalities in life we put everything in one tag and seek for more. How many more "valuable" things we need to have to be able to find our sense of self. 

Probably one of the greatest challenge for me and my journey to minimalism is how to really identify what I need, what is important and what should be cherished. I have heard and read so many claims about finding self worth through wanting less but is it really that easy? or is it just a trend? I have realized that this is more than just decluttering the trash you have been keeping your whole life. It is accepting what you are going to be with far far less than what the world owns. And then be happy of the choice you make without rationalizations and fancy/trendy definitions. Without being so self upholding and accepting that others have different choices than yours. So this is where I lay my thoughts to rest. To realized that what I value the most would certainly defines how I see myself regardless of not wanting more. So would I sit back and watch the world go by? definitely not perhaps... but I will find value in the most simple things I can do, the most simple things I can find and be happy on the thought that I can see in myself the change I wish to see even if it doesn't make any difference to the world. Have a wonderful week ahead wonderful people.